Looking For Support...

Hey, guys. I told you I'd be back! Just not on the regular for a while still...

So I'm dealing with two separate problems that are quite related. First off, I'm in excruciating pain. All. The. Time. Now, this actually isn't necessarily unusual for me. With my health and skeletal problems, I've been in relatively constant pain for a very, very long time. Hence the back surgery at like 21 years old. My back problems are degenerative, though, so it will never get better...only worse (unless science makes a ridiculous discovery). Anyway, that brings us to today. I'm in more pain now than I was before surgery, and it's constant. Of course, the intensity fluctuates but it's always there. Surgery is not an option and because the pain is so bad, I'm seeing a new pain management guy next month. But how do you go through each day, pushing through pain, and not go mad?

This brings me to my second issue: support. Sure, friends and family can be sympathetic and offer help here and there...but I really need at least one parent who understands what it's like to push past the awful pain to take care of their kids. I made a suggestion on how to do this about a week ago but haven't heard back. I'm tempted to start something myself but I wouldn't know where to begin. Okay, that's a lie. I have a couple ideas but I would need to do some research first.

Just overwhelmed and feeling slightly alone and helpless...

Mommy Update

Well, some things have been changing, for the better. It's actually pretty exciting.

A couple weekends ago, I spent the entire weekend with just the kiddo and me. We had so much fun! ...even though I was broke and we didn't leave the house. Let's just say I'm extremely resourceful. :D

Family dynamics are adjusting. I'm learning to not make assumptions about people based on their past; people change on a regular basis and I need to learn how to be more flexible and learn about the changes that people make and how those changes effect relationships (of all sorts). Family time has become even more important than it was already. Conscious efforts are being made to have legit conversations with my hubby and spend time with each other after the little one goes to bed. And not just the "how was your day?" or "can I get you a beer?" while staring at the TV together. We actually have interesting conversations. And even if only one of us is excited about the topic, the other one smiles and listens, excited that they're excited.

Another exciting thing is that I'm doing some more behind-the-scenes work at MomMeetMom.com :) I was originally the official editor for the blog. Now I'm being put to work editing another aspect of the website. And to top it off, I recently made a suggestion about having a section specifically for disabled moms. I'm not getting my hopes up (the woman that I spoke to had to discuss the idea with the other two founders)...but I definitely think it would be cool. Unless you've been there, you have no idea of the trials of being a disabled parents, especially a SAHM. So we'll see what happens.

So there's the scoop. :)
Until next time...